Its been a while since I’ve posted a review or video here and its unfortunate that this latest post is about such a solemn subject. This post is tentative and subject to be edited and changed but for now I just wanted to post how I feel..
I was completely taken aback when I looked at my phone (which was on youtube) and saw the news. In a moment of shock I thought I misread or it was some type of error or maybe even a hoax. But then who would make up such a thing? In my moment of utter disbelief I kept thinking how could this happen? I had just (no kidding) just watched a couple of his and SHINee’s videos the night before. Then I thought back to his performance of Let me out I had seen last week and it dawned on me.
I must admit I was a little worried. I’ve always been a really stickler for lyrics. No matter the genre I always zero in on the lyrics, to me its truly what makes a song, what gives it it’s soul and what usually touches you when you hear it. The lyrics to “Let me out” were profound and very telling and I was left saying wow I truly hope he his ok. Then I remembered he wrote the song Elevator and that was a couple of years ago.
I still haunts me, if these lyrics don’t sound like a serious cry for help I’m not sure what does.
This was the song that had cast Jonghyun in a different light to me. It was a total foil to the usually cheerful, energetic/passionate image he portrayed. A deeply personal song that lifted the shroud that covered his inner pain. This song has haunted me way before these recent events( the last line..). Though he seemed to pull through. I thought hopefully that writing and performing/sharing these songs was a outlet for him to deal with his pain.
As a fan I felt uncomfortable and concerned for him again upon listening to his more recent songs filled with fatalistic and self deprecating lyrics, but I felt really what could I as a fan truly do? That would be up to his friends, family, colleagues and producers. I am just an insignificant cog in the machine not to mention I don’t speak his language and live in a totally different country. I expressed this sentiment to someone and they warmly (in short) told me “You never know if you just may be the one to make the difference in someone’s life and/or circumstance.” So the lesson I learned and others should as well in this is to say something if you think something is wrong even if you think it doesn’t matter or wont be taken seriously because we never know.
The sad fact is he is gone and as a artist he had more to give and share with the world and influence it. By doing this he ended a possible future that could have been and the world is worst off for it.
Though his legacy will live on………..
A few(of many) Jonghyun and SHINee songs
Always liked this song even though I thought it was kinda wrong ( and semi- blasphemous) LOL
This was one of the videos I had watched the night before the news.
and of course…….